For a Few months before this all happened I had a feeling that God was going to get my attention somehow. I think he has finally gotten it. These last few weeks have been a growing time for me to really learn to seek God when Im scared, sad, frustrated, angry, anything. I have spent many nights just reading the Bible, not looking for answers but more for comfort. The cool thing is I have found answers and comfort. I want to share something that happened yesterday that I didn’t realize was God until today.
The day after I got out of the hospital was the phone call that my blood test came back positive for Rheumatoid Arthritis and Ankylosing Spondylitis. So we spent time researching and Learning mostly about RA because we had heard more about it. The more we learned about AS the more I could see the connections that AS was matching more of my symptoms. I didn’t really think anything of it until we got the call for a cancellation on Monday. I had two days to come up with questions and prepare myself for hearing what the diagnosis would truly be. I remembered praying yesterday morning asking God to help me get through this day and to not be anxious and I threw in a request that it would just be nice if it was only one thing and not both. I don’t think I was very serious with God and didn’t’ think anything of it and went on with my day. At the appointment I asked what my diagnosis was and she said Ankylosing Spondylitis. I asked about the RA? She said I didn’t have it and showed me on my lab work that it didn’t show high enough numbers and after hearing everything I described it was AS. I was so dumbfounded but we kept moving through the questions we had and the exam. To be honest when we walked out of the clinic I was so elated to learn it was only AS and not RA as well. It felt as if a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Today as I look back I am seeing that it was God’s way of telling me I heard you, I am listening to you even when you are not serious. I am showing you signs that I am here. You will be okay and You can do this, He tells me! I didn’t think that God did big miracles often but today I am seeing this and its a big miracle to me!