Waiting…Fear…Anxiety…Peace
This is a season for Praising Jesus, my God!
This is a season for obeying Him.
For the last few years I have just been coasting in my faith. We moved to South Dakota and I lost my Bible Study habits that I had in Nebraska. Business of parenting and creating a new home in South Dakota took over. Over the years I have tried to read my Bible but got bored with it unless I was in a Study or Church. This last week God has shown me it’s time to get back to Him…reading about Him, the one who has saved me.
I will get to my story soon but today I am starting with a verse my mom shared with me.
Psalm 103
Of David.
1 Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, my soul.
This week I ended up in the hospital, we were sent home with a simple diagnosis of a complex migraine. Many doctors’ visits followed the next week with God’s gifts dropped in each appointment. We don’t have an official diagnosis yet but because of this week I am left week, anxious and afraid yet I have been given the gift of peace of knowing what I don’t have.
The verse “and heals all your diseases†and its following verses spoke to me. I know God doesn’t heal every disease on earth but some day he will heal all my diseases. He has forgiven all my sins. He has taken me up from both my pit of anguish and my pit of incompleteness. Even though I am not perfect he has chosen me to crown me with love and compassion. He gives me so many good things to satisfy my desires. Even in my fears, anxiety, and unknown he is giving me so many blessings to get through each moment. So… my youth is renewed like the eagles. This is all the reason to PRAISE Jesus.
God has been very patient with me but a few weeks ago I felt him speaking to me that I need to get into his Word, the Bible, the one book he gave us to really get to know him. I wasn’t sure how to do that and today I am still not sure. He has been waking me up in the middle of the night with kids, back pain, or just not being able to sleep for years and very seldom do I take that time to be with God.
God gave me a wakeup call this week. I am so glad he is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. I’m so grateful that he doesn’t accuse me or harbor anger forever. He has been so gentle to me during this time giving the answers to what’s going on with my body before we even questioned. We didn’t have to wait for lengthy doctors’ appointments schedules to open up they had already happened the week before with the blood drawn and the answers provided this week.
I was awake yesterday morning reading this passage with my mom and the morning before. Today I am reading it alone and just letting I pour over my soul, gearing me up for this next week. Speaking to me to Praise the Lord, who has the throne in heaven. And his heavenly kingdom does rule over all! I will use this opportunity of a life change as I did with our miscarriage and other health scares. I will use it to glorify God and to Praise him.
Today I choose to
Praise the Lord, O my soul.