Today was a great day! I woke up very early this morning after a great night of sleep without back pain only to have a rib go out later in the morning. Other than that it has been a very fun day. We ate breakfast with friends at IHOP, went to an auction, made a wonderful lunch that froze into 3 other meals plus the one we ate.. Tuna Tetrazzini.. YUM!! Then some Christmas shopping just girls, Kamea got to go along with us. Despite not getting a nap she did really good and even took a cat nap while we were at Sams Club sampling all the yummy goodies. The evening was a relaxing evening with an Advent lesson for the kids, baths, bedtime and even a bit of TV time somewhere in there. It was just so nice to all be doing our own things and enjoying it and feeling at home!!! Kids had a hard time going to sleep but they are all sleeping. Christmas baking was finished this week and maybe a few more things will be made, but we shall see.
But in light of all the good things today i happened to turn on the TV and watched the list of names of the 6 and 7 year olds that were killed yesterday… So many comments and so many things said ring true to what we are all feeling and thinking. I just sat on my couch and cried. I remember all the other tragic events that have occurred before. They are never easy to deal with, and even harder for the families invovled. I can’t imagine. I just want to cherish my kids even more so i will. I will hug them more each day God blesses them to me! I praise him that he has given me these beautiful Children. Yes some days are hard but the moments when Gavin is just waking up and isn’t even awake and just hollers “Mommy I Love You” and rolls over and sleeps some more is just precious. Or when Kamea claps her hands over and over wanting me to take her into her arms and she gives me a big sloppy kiss! Melt my heart, i can’t imagine never seeing my child again, feeling and hearing them. We lost one baby when we had our miscarriage, i felt blessed because i didn’t get to know them and don’t hurt as much and miss as much but knowing my kids now i realize what a blessing it is to know your children. But along with that comes so many things that you miss when they are apart from you. The peace that i do have of knowing my baby is in heaven and someday i will be with them is such peace for me. I pray that i can be the example of Jesus and guide my children to know him as their personal Savior so my whole family will enter the kingdom of Heaven. Our time on this earth is short, for some a shorter time than others. Eternity is forever and in eternity there is no pain if you choose life with Christ. If you don’t choose life, your eternity will be a life of eternal hell. Do you know where you will go when you die? Do you teach your children and are you concerned with their future? You can’t make the decision for them but you can teach them. So this morning when i woke up i took time to pray…for my husband, for my kids, for the kids who died and those affected by this tragedy. May God be glorified in this.
So with Christmas coming soon, i want to keep my house clean but im just gonna let it be a bit more messy so i can teach my kids about the meaning of Christmas with a little help from Truth in the Tinsel.
Im gonna take the time to be with my kids, play with them, read to them, love them, spoil them, and discipline because i love my kids.
My heart is aching and yet so full of Joy in the things God has blessed me with.